Hey. Its been awhile since i last posted. Havent had computer access for awhile. But im posting off my phone for this cause im in a dark depressive state and need help. This all started about 2 weeks ago. I was hanging outwith my friend and neighbor phoenix all day. We were having a good time. Playing games, watching movies, even carve pumpkins.shes an amazing friend. But anyways i leave her housr around 9pm ish and walk home. As soon as i leave her house i notice 2 cars parked in front of my parents house and my dad outside. When i get closer the cars were actually police officers. My dad tells me to go inside and not to worry. So i go inside. i go outside to clear my head and to try to figure out whats going on. I see my mom in the back of one of the cop cars. I freak out and talk to my dad to try and figure out whats going on. He says its none of my business. So i get pissed and walk off. End up hurting my hand on a stop sign, went back home and try to sleep but never could. Next day my moms car is gone. I didnt think much of it for some reason. Probably lack of sleep effecting my brain. I find out 3 days later that my mom is in virginia with her ex from 6th grade for a week. She gets back and i find out very little of whats going on. My mom tells me that her and my dad are getting a divorce. That they have been unhappy for 7 years. I asked why she was taken away in the back of a police car. She says dont worry about it. Its not your business. So i ask my dad. He tells me she was baker acted *which basically means you go to the hospital when your severely depressed or suicidal* but he wont tell me the reason why. A few days pass and no new info. On halloween night i was with Phoenix and my other friend ciera at cieras house for a close friend halloween party type thing. We are all having a good time. Then around 11 pm my phone gets blown up with calls. I didnt reconize the number so i didnt answer. 28 calls later i was fed up with the same person calling back to back. So i answer it. It was one of my moms friends. I couldnt understand her name but she was yelling and cussing me out blaming me for the divorce. I asked my mom about it two days after and she had no idea that happened. So fast forward to yesterday: november 3rd 2014... my mom calls me at 8in the morning to help her pack her things. She decided on.her own that she was gonna leave the house. I told her no because why would i want to help my mom leave? Thats stupid. Anyways so after i tell her no she basically starts cussing at me. She then precedes to tell me that the reason they are getting a divorce is because of me. That since i was two years old that i started making their marriage decay. As well as that im useless, a $#!t stain to society and that the only thing im good for is helping my friends commit suicide. So yeah. Thats what has been going on. Its been rough on me. And because.of all this i have been in a severe depressive state as of late. Not eating, drinking, not even getting.out of bed. And i dont have a clue how to fix this. Its eating me up inside and tearing away at me like a bear tearing into a freshly mauled deer for food. I need help guys. Idk what kind of help i need... but i need help. 

Local mods please close this. I guess it accidentally made two. Im.sorry for the trouble.