For starters, if this thread needs to be moved, please do it. I don't know if it has to be here. Then, I'm not doing this thread to get some points for the Tour de Vizzed. Absolutely not. What I'm going to say is serious. Actually, I no longer compete for the Tour de Vizzed since I achieved what I always wanted to get.

Some of you knows that September wasn't a good month for me. The reason is explained in my last walkthrough that I, surprisingly, delivered. October began and, wow, nothing has changed. It's even worse. Last month, I lost my grandpa who died from a heart attack during the lunch, according to the doctors. That is the reason why I didn't feel so good last month. Now, it's my uncle's turn. He is about to die soon, it just a matter of hours or days. He has a pancreas cancer, just in case you want to know. And obviously, I have to bear at the moment the pain of losing another person I loved besides the frustration of the job search which is driving me crazy. My birthday is in ten days, I'm trying to think about that or something else. But, in my mind, I have that picture. My grandpa dead and now my uncle joining him. Like I said, I miraculously published September's walkthrough. Don't ask me if I'll do it this month. I don't know, honestly. I don't want to deliver another short walkthrough. I may take that position too seriously but it'll be a first if I can't make October's walkthrough.

Davideo7 :
tRIUNE : I'll let you know if I can accomplish my mission this month. Maybe it's just a short rough time to overcome, maybe not.

So yeah, you now know why last month hasn't been a good month for me and how October is starting for me and my family. I can't wait to see November, hopefully it'll be alright. That's what I should say but, sadly, I fear the worst

Laian : I feel you man, losing someone close to you can be really rough.

While it may sound odd, what I find to be the best thing to do is actually think about what you want to do after the person does pass away, if it will be soon. That way I avoid being in a hopeless state of mind and have an easier time to get going again. I always think as bad as possible, so the outcome can only be better. Of course this is my opinion. Do what you think is best.

Keep in mind that you are a part of this community and that we'll be there for you.

Why didn't you summon me?.... I mean....you told me that you haven't been ok but, you didn't say in detail wise. Now I fully know why. It is really tough losing someone you love dearly, as a family member. that....has to be one of the toughest times. But Laian all thing will prevail, you just need to wait and have more faith. Don't lose hope. We are all here for you. I know that feeling...being in the pit of despair losing hope, and not sure of what to do next. Please remember you have your family, and your friends here on vizzed that love you very much. If you want you can take some time off, to have a space. And to think of what to do next, without having anymore stress on yourself. Because me seeing you sad its not right at all. Please bring back your smiley face

You are strong ok? Don't give up....

Cuddles*

Thank you so much for the support, from the bottom of my heart. I can't reply to your nice comments since I'm going away for the weekend. I will help a friend who's moving to a new home. So I see you in a day or two. Bye and take care, folks. I'll try to think about something positive in the meantime.

Aw man, that really sucks! That death happened very unexpectedly as well.

I recall having my 3 of my relatives die all in the same year a few years ago for me. They were all at a young age and they died so young. It is just a horrible and tragic thing. Even though I am not close with them, it still breaks my heart and makes me cry a bit to see others who were close to them, just go into that very sad emotional state of breaking down and crying for a while.

A person's death is never ever good but it does show you that you need appreciate the people in your life while it lasts. Death is a serious yet personal topic that everyone faces through, and it is not very easy to deal with it. Remember that you have your family, real life friends, and Vizzed friends to talk to. You are not alone in life situations like this.

It will take some time to heal yourself inside out so don't be afraid of holding in your emotions. It is part of life. You will move on when the time comes. Whenever you are ready to come back, you know that we will always be here for you.

It's tough to hear someone died, but to know that someone is dying might be even tougher. I guess I'm lucky for not losing relatives while they were dying but a cousin from my mom killed himself, I didn't know him very well but that was pretty shocking to hear as well...

I hope you will have a fine birthday and that you will be able to move on with your life. If you ever want to talk about it, we're here for you.

Laian : I just lost my grandpa today. If I can offer any advice it is to get on good grounds with your uncle. When my family visited my grandparents last, there was a big argument and that was about 4 months ago and my dad never called my grandpa since then, and now, unexpectedly he isn't alive anymore.

Laian:  I know you have been going through a lot lately, with the little communication that we have had, but don't worry, man. Stuff happens, It's always hard losing family. I lost 2 grandfathers within a few months ago, which is why i got this tattoo that I will attach for you. 
If you ever need somebody to talk to, just message me, man. I'll give you my Skype, My Facebook, whatever you need. I'll do anything to be there for my oldest friend on Vizzed. 

Laian : Aw well I hope this month does turn out to be nice I know this can be very hard on you and I want you to know that we are all here for you bud. I'll keep your family in my prayers and pray for the best to happen for you during this dark time so for now keep smiling and hoping for the next day to be sunny.

You know what, folks? All these replies, all that support I have from you... it reminds me that I registered to the best community ever. We are different but you are always here when something bad happens. My uncle died a few hours after I replied to this thread for the last time, last Friday in the evening. He joined my grandpa and I know he won't suffer any more with this cancer. It was hard for my family, including my aunt and my cousin but they are doing good like I do. Like a book, you write new chapters and turn the pages until the fatality comes. We have to move on, indeed. So, I'll make sure to be and stay the Laian you all know here. Thanks so much from the bottom of my heart for your support and your replies. I'm aware it's like I'm repeating the same score over and over again but, sincerely, thank you folks. 

Laian : hey man i hope novemberr is starteing up pretty good for you so just know that all the people of cafe corner are rooting for you and hopeing that your life picks up soon buddie if you ever need anything or someone to talk to we havent meet but i am a good listion/reader and i can understand what your going though with the deaths i had something along these lines happen to me

Laian : I don't really know you but if it helps any I am sorry for your loss. Hopefully this November will be a good Month for you. I too have had my share of not having good months but I haven't really experience death from a family member yet. I just want to say to you that you are in my prayers and I hope that you really do have a good month this time. Maybe something good will happen to make you feel better this month. Maybe, and good present from a dear friend or family. Those are all the words of encouragement that I have your you at the moment, sorry.

Well, looks like you've gotten your fair share of condolences. It's not a huge deal, but take it in stride, and you'll come out fine.