I contemplated suicide for a while. I didn't want to kill myself; I didn't want to leave my family and friends behind, but I felt like my life was a mistake. I felt incompetent and that I couldn't even do the simplest of tasks without needing someone to hold my hand. I had felt that I was a burden on my parents because of my "incompetence" and that I'd do everyone a favor (myself included) if I just killed myself. It came to a point to where I held no value for my life. I was miserable. I was scared.
But the enemy was using this to try to destroy me. He whispered those lies in my ear, and I knew it even though I believed somewhat of what he told me. How I felt I was and who I thought I was is not who God created. After all, God knows us better than we know ourselves.
And God doesn't make mistakes. He's laid out a plan for each of our lives since before the beginning of the universe. And you look at how everything in the universe works now, like how the planets orbit on a constant course, never drifting off or colliding into another planet. They're at a far enough distance to not pull one another into them. You see a lot of life benefiting another thing, like bees pollinate another plant or when something dies and decomposes, it fertilizes the ground. If God made mistakes, everything in creation would be falling apart around us. Nothing would work right. His design is flawless.
I know, I might've strayed from the point a little. Suicide is devastating, and I want people to know that there's more beyond what we see or know. God is always working in the background, putting things into place. So I guess my point is: never give up on yourself...because God will never give up on you. I mean, He doesn't see our lives worthless. He sent His Son to die for us so we could forever be in Heaven - to have eternal life. Why would He do that if He didn't think we were worth it to Him? People on this fallen earth will sometimes see us not worth the time or trouble, maybe a lost cause. Maybe they won't give us a chance at all...but not God. He devised a plan to save us even before anything existed.
One more thing before I finish. Satan is always out to destroy us. He knows how we are, our fears, our weaknesses, everything. He'll manipulate those things to try to steal our joy and even drive us to our own demise. The Bible says he's like a lion ready to devour us at any given moment. If Satan is so eager to destroy us - trying really, really hard...then he must know how bright of a future we have...right?
I contemplated suicide for a while. I didn't want to kill myself; I didn't want to leave my family and friends behind, but I felt like my life was a mistake. I felt incompetent and that I couldn't even do the simplest of tasks without needing someone to hold my hand. I had felt that I was a burden on my parents because of my "incompetence" and that I'd do everyone a favor (myself included) if I just killed myself. It came to a point to where I held no value for my life. I was miserable. I was scared.
But the enemy was using this to try to destroy me. He whispered those lies in my ear, and I knew it even though I believed somewhat of what he told me. How I felt I was and who I thought I was is not who God created. After all, God knows us better than we know ourselves.
And God doesn't make mistakes. He's laid out a plan for each of our lives since before the beginning of the universe. And you look at how everything in the universe works now, like how the planets orbit on a constant course, never drifting off or colliding into another planet. They're at a far enough distance to not pull one another into them. You see a lot of life benefiting another thing, like bees pollinate another plant or when something dies and decomposes, it fertilizes the ground. If God made mistakes, everything in creation would be falling apart around us. Nothing would work right. His design is flawless.
I know, I might've strayed from the point a little. Suicide is devastating, and I want people to know that there's more beyond what we see or know. God is always working in the background, putting things into place. So I guess my point is: never give up on yourself...because God will never give up on you. I mean, He doesn't see our lives worthless. He sent His Son to die for us so we could forever be in Heaven - to have eternal life. Why would He do that if He didn't think we were worth it to Him? People on this fallen earth will sometimes see us not worth the time or trouble, maybe a lost cause. Maybe they won't give us a chance at all...but not God. He devised a plan to save us even before anything existed.
One more thing before I finish. Satan is always out to destroy us. He knows how we are, our fears, our weaknesses, everything. He'll manipulate those things to try to steal our joy and even drive us to our own demise. The Bible says he's like a lion ready to devour us at any given moment. If Satan is so eager to destroy us - trying really, really hard...then he must know how bright of a future we have...right? 
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