I hope nobody takes offense to this, but Vizzed seems like it is so dead right now! This has been the first time I have been here in months, and it's like there is hardly any activity anymore! I haven't even tried playing any games here since back in August. With flash going down with the Plugin, I don't see the point. I guess my experience with this site has been okay with the exception to things I said and did that got people upset.

For one thing, I have major anger issues, and I can't seem to get where I need to get to in my life. I'm stuck in this constant environment of negativity that never changes, it only gets worse. I'm way too old to be living at home still, and the toxic/abusive relationship I have with my dad is ruining my life. I have nowhere to go, and I mean NOWHERE! I keep trying to get work and keep running into more problems.

I feel like it isn't even worth trying to be a good person anymore. Everywhere I go I get bullied and threatened by people for just existing. Everywhere I go people want to start fights with me. Throughout my life and my childhood I got beat up and bullied in school, and my dad took the side of the bulllies even though he was supposed to take up for me. Ever since then, I've never been able to do what I needed to do in life.

I made poor choices with my employment, and that's why I'm 37 and still living in this bad place with no money, no job, and no future. The neighborhood I grew up in is over-run with criminals and drug-addicts that have tried to start fights with me. I can't even go outside anymore! If people get offended by this, I'm sorry, but I can't talk to anyone in real life.

I've tried to get help, but everyone blames me. Although, I see other people get jobs and money without doing any of the work I do. I put in twice as much effort and get nowhere. If people on here take it the wrong way, then so be it, but I need help too. I'm a human being for Christ's sake! I can only take so much of this! It's destroying my life, and things need to change!

Because of Covid, I can't get a steady job without any drama. It's like I see other people getting a handout, and I don't want that! All I want is a chance to work and succeed! THAT'S IT!! I don't need a relationship, marriage, or kids!!! That will not help me! I can't love anyone else, if I can't fix my life!! I need a good, decent job and the chance to save my money, and move out!!

I'm not selling my truck, computer, or any of my belongings because that will not help!! I need a job I can actually do, and I don't even care about the hours!! I just need to work and be given a path to acheive what I need to acheive so I can get out of here!!! IT'S KILLING ME AND I NEED OUT!! If people want to hate on me for making this thread, then fine, but I've seen people here that support me too!!

The way things are going now, I may not get any replies for a while, but I do feel better after doing this. I don't even care about who is President as long as they'll do something to make it possible for me to work. Trump seemed like the better person for the job, but he lost. Although, he did have his faults. I'll accept Biden and hope that he will help people like myself.

I know that there are other people out there in my situation, but not in real life. I've only seen them online, and I feel for them too. One guy was worse off than I was and had about the same kind of childhood but worse. People like me and a lot of us young men are people too and need love and support too. They also need opportunities to make something of ourselves because we want to work just like everybody else.

Yeah, this place is quite dead, we had some brief moment of rebirth with many old members coming back but right now it's pretty dead. We're looking into one last chance to save the RGR, hopefully we can succeed and keep this place as is even if dead.

It really hurts that the universe seems to have some kind of grudge against you. After seeing my girlfriend in a fit of panic just two days ago to the point of not being able to hold her screams because of everything life is throwing at her right now, I can totally understand why you see so many reasons to give up.

You definitely need help, and going to find it doesn't make you weak or anything. Some people have a rough time simply existing due to everything going on in their minds and their lifelong inner fight to be like the rest of mortals. But if everyone near you blames you for it, then you're surrounded by dickheads that would be better off dead.

Being 37 and still at home can sound bad, but I have a couple examples on my family that are on that same situation, one your same age and one nearing 50 years old. Their problems at home aren't the same as yours, but you should stop focusing on age because that's just a number, what matters is if you can actually move out and then you will decide if you want to stay or not.

I sincerely hope you manage to get the change you desire. As you say, there's people who don't deserve what they have and even less appreciate it, and it would be best if they stepped aside to let the interested people occupy their place. And feel free to make as many threads as you want, usually I'd recommend a couple off-topic threads we have around if you want to let things off your chest but that's only when you want to post more frequently than every few months.

EX Palen : I knew when I seen your name in the list of replies, I was going to get someone that understood my situation. I don't know, there are some people on Vizzed that actually get what I'm going through, and you are defiantly one of those people. I hate to hear about what your girlfriend is going through. I'm glad to hear you at least have somebody. Not only that, but someone that isn't afraid to show some kind of emotion in front of you.

I don't have much luck with women, but I guess that has to do with me. Maybe not, I don't know. Having a partner isn't going to help me anyway. The only thing that will help me is getting a good job and getting out of this place. I just want to be able to take care of myself and not be reliant on people that don't have my best interest at heart.

I can't believe there are people out there that are older than me and still living at home. I don't see any of that where I live. Your words prove to me that it's me and family that's the problem not the world. Whenever I'm able to go and venture out into the world, I find that it's not all bad. I really liked your comment about how the people in my life would be better off dead.

It's nice to see I'm not the only one that thinks that way. It ought to be illegal for people to abuse their kids that way. I wish that there was help for people like me but there isn't. It's been a bad week, but I hope that with this election being over things will change. It's nice to see we have a leader with a better attitude than we had.

I wish people would appreciate things more, but I guess that will never happen. I need to move on from that too. I also wonder what you're talking about when you said that there is a way to save the RGR. I hope that there is. I haven't even played games on here since back in August. I'd like to start coming here like I used to. It's mainly people like you that keep me here.

luigi25 : Your comment was very touching. When someone is so grateful for what you do and the only thing you do is simply be yourself is... no word can properly describe it.

I first met my girlfriend when I was almost 27, so it's not like I've had much luck with women either. And actually she's afraid of showing emotion, she fears that because I see her mental problems in action I won't want to be with her. But I've had my rough time too in the past and I know just how much I needed someone back then to support me or just be there keeping me company and reminding me I'm not alone fighting against the world, so this is no reason to leave her and even less if she shows the great deal of control she has over it.

She's not having a good time at home either, because she's constantly neglected by her parents and brother, admitting just like you that she wants to leave that damned place. She once told me a story from one time she attempted suicide, at the hospital her mother scolded her for picking that day and urging her to get better because she was hungry and wanted to go. One of many stories that makes you wonder if those who say that not everybody should have children aren't entirely wrong.

But enough of my rambling, even if it's connected to this thread. I'm glad to see you're somewhat feeling better, so feel free to come here anytime you need to vent off some of the toxicity the world throws at you.